freedom of being seen

Written by Kristi – pictured above:

In the vernacular of pop culture – these photos include a ‘spread’ or a photographic experience that includes bearing the vulva to the camera.  I’m a 43 year old woman, who grew up in the 80’s and progressed from American conservatism to some kind of moderate view about most things in life. 

But not my body.

I was raised in the conservative south, which by all means adores beauty – but a ‘type’ of beauty. And the blondes do get all the attention, and thus have more fun….but dancing around the topic, is nothing like talking to it in the mirror.  I had to come to terms with myself, to fully love my husband; sounds circular – but most deep realizations are deeply dualistic like that.

What does it mean inside you,

and the art experience you’ll have with Anahata?

Well, if you limit yourself to your inner dialogue about ‘giving it away’ you won’t have a full experience.  How many times as women have we been ‘taught’ this by our mothers, or discussed it with our girlfriends.  The base idea is that there is a scarcity of sex, and it gives ‘us’ (the idea of) power to dish it out only when all of our wants are met.  So you want a man to commit to you, and so you withhold sex; sure it’s the traditional way of testing his heart – but equally, it’s a way to just keep him on your hook, and never really know if you truely, deeply, enjoy being loved by him.  And that’s the hitch, I had to do this in acceptance and love of myself, because my husband adores my body, and well – I didn’t, so I actually wasn’t participaitng in his adoration. 
I had a wall, fencing it out. 

The art process with Anahata, gave me a vision of myself that I fell in love with.

If you have set a ‘limit’ of what skin you’re willing to show or lady bits that are not be seen it will impact every inch of your thinking in each movement, pose, and the double think about how the camera is seeing you.   It came through in the pictures!  Anahata worked with me past it, because he’s so very sensitive, he could see my thoughts, he could see me asking for acceptance from the camera – when his role is to provide images, not verbal affirmation.  The discussion was frank, and for a moment my feelings were a bit hurt, but I think that was the wall of self non-acceptance falling.

When  you choose to confront the social scorn for your intimate parts,
or moments – you begin to take them back for yourself.

Your photo shoot is about your experience.

If you are experiencing shame about exposing your naked body, in any form or part – that ‘vibe’, those feelings come through.  Anahata will give you a break to go and examine them, and trust him to take you through the process.
So the follow up question is are you projecting that shame onto your lover, and asking them to bear the burden of shame, instead of exalting in their adoration of you?

I want your freedom, like I had mine.

I took these photos home and cried over them, really for the lost years of ‘hiding’ myself from my husband.  Only offering when the lights were out.  Only comparing myself to some kind of non-existent standard that rises in my mind before I can achieve it.

Spread your mental and emotional freedom to your partner.  Spread your legs for the camera, and sit with the feelings you have inside you.  The pictures are beautiful, if you can’t feel it – can you really give it to your partner?

Yea, I mean it – there’s therapy in this art – it’s powerful.

How many of your actions in love and the bedroom are conditioned by
the same social or subconscious assumptions?